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[Jun. 11th, 2005|08:50 pm] |
Well life's gotten real good in the past week, I got a job, amazing I know. I work at the Lakeland Civic Center and I get good ass pay for doing mindless labor but, it's hard work, I come home sore every night but its worth it cause i'm making $200 in 4 days and the rest of the week I have days off plus they pay me for my hour lunch. I love my job! Well thats pretty much the only thing going on in my life...
Ohh by the way Bryanm go up there yourself and get an applicationm I told them about it and they said they would give it a try, but dont say that you know some one workin there cause they dont hire friends k...
Well life's crazy it seems like every one I know is getting pregnaught, this world is getting crazyer kids having kids whats up with that............
Well thats all, I got to get some rest and heal up for wed..... |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2005|05:00 pm] |
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chello.............
well im in jacksonville visiting my faimly...its been fun im having a blast...except for my first night my mom was drunk and she not a good acholic...her favorite phrase is "laugh it up funny girl"lol but im think of staying for every but who nows...
but the down fall to faimly is the fighting and there has been a lot of that(:
I've met so many cute guys like my "brothers" friends omg
and this cool guys today when i was get more gages
but im coming home sunday boo no more free pot now i have to start paying again but ive got a lot of cool pipes so its all good!!!
well thats about all |
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[May. 10th, 2005|06:25 pm] |
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blah....have you ever faceted happiness so long that you cant tell whats a real felling anymore...well thats the predicament I'm in right now...things that use to be happy things happen but i faceted happiness so long that i cant tell if its real or not.
ne who 8 days of school left yeah i wish i could be happier but its just not that simple after school gets out i have to figure out all my bullshit: i have to spend the first two weeks in jacksonville then i come back get my license, my dad signs the papers and i then have to decide on were to live with a best friend or a brother who has a life of his own in jacksonville or if im staying in high school or dropping out.so im kinda scared for summer to come im not ready to grow up anymore and have to take care i myself financial i should be use to it but im not, i final got my parents back in my life and all they can talk about is me growing up. SO in 8 days i have to face the real world alone!!!
♥ashley |
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[Mar. 8th, 2005|06:25 pm] |
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Well F-cat days have been fun, but the day seems a lot longer when you get out of school early...
They opened Steakn'Shake back up after the fire.... so me and linz have are free lunch spot back...
Life's been really happy for the past few days I've been completely happy, well not completely but who's ever completely happy in this fucked up world (?) but I'm pretty damn close!!!
Well I road the city bus to linz house so im hanging out with her... I always meet interesting people on the city bus like today I met these 5 kids who were running away from home, they thought the CITY BUS would take them out of lakeland lol.................
ok thats all bye!!! |
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[Feb. 19th, 2005|08:27 pm] |
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well this has been a fun week!!!
im chillin with beth and shay i just left linz house!!!
well i final relized lifes a lot easyer when you step out of drama bullshit, but no matter how hard i try it follows me!!! but i relized toinght if i dont say nothing at all to any one about my feelings then people cant say i say shit!!!
well thats all i had to say so good day!!! |
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[Feb. 12th, 2005|10:58 pm] |
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well i just thought about something that skipped my mind last night so yeah
i walked into talco bell last night and i thought i was going insane cause for a moment i thought maybe anthony wasn't really dead but then someone told me the guy i saw was only anthonys brother it was so good to see that face and that smile again♥!!
well tonight was chill i went to the so called hatter its was alright i got to go to that park for the first time its was cool!
yeapers thats all i have to say! |
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[Feb. 11th, 2005|11:27 pm] |
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ummmm................today was a very interesting day it started off really good cause i was hyper then it got even better 4th period cause i skipped and just chilled with some friends.
but then i went home with lin-z and i started felling really sick then of course things got worse cause once again people just can't leave me be about all this drama bullshit!!!!
but i went to the movies it was fun for once i ditched lin-z j/k it was a mutal ditching. and i just hungout with some other friends!!
lin-z forced me to stay the night so im at her house right now j/k i luv chillin w/ lin-z!!!
marilynne why do you have to start things i know we aren't friends but i thought atleast we were chill and didn't talk shit behind each others backs well i guess thats just me!!!
*and another thing i have no promblem w/you being friends with adam and unlike you said i wouldn't have got all pissy and if i had a problem w/you having adams # why would i give it to you im guessing you didn't put to much thought into that one now did you!
well im planning on skiping valentines day all together what the point of going to school just to see all the happy couples when your all alone in the world! so i guess ill see everyone tuesday!even though im unhappy right now i hope everyone else has a grrrrrrrrrreat V-day
well tootles i got to get some sleep i feel like shit
ashley |
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[Feb. 7th, 2005|10:07 pm] |
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Well today was a good day! i havn't had a really good day in awhile i think i'm final out of the depression.
Today i did the craziest thing in mr. cummings first period it was great it made the day barable.
Then i went to lake bonnie for forth period and smoked yet again and met a guy hes so kickass he could make any day barable.
Well im tierd of random people walk up to me, people who i dont even know cussing me out for bullshit they dont even know the hole story to.
well in the past few week i think i figured out the circle of love:
love=betrayl=heartbreak=pain=death=freedom=happiness=friendship=trust=love
thats just how i see love!
♥in loving memory of Anthony S. "GONE NOT FORGOTTEN"♥ |
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[Feb. 5th, 2005|11:39 pm] |
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well today was a interesting day!!!
Ive been chillin with linz and its been pretty kickass!!
like today the funniest shit kept happening........well when your with linz you never have to worry about being embarassed cause she does all the embarassing......
like she made the toliet over flow no she didn't take a big shit just she did it, then we went out side for a smoke break and we sat in the tree and some how she managed to get dog shit all over her ass leave it to linz to do the impossible!!!!and now shes saying the dog vertical shitted into the tree
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well brooke i herd about your nose im sorry hope you ok, and to help ease the pain me and linz are going to make a nickname which we will inform you about latter.
i hate when your going through a tuff time and someone brings up god like hes the answer to everything!!!!!
i mean no offense by that to no one just yeah!!!
well im going to go and chill w/linz maybe she'll do something even more impossible!!!!
bye♥ |
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[Feb. 5th, 2005|12:27 am] |
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yeah i always thought life sucked but it wasn't all that bad untill more recently now i see how life truly is, its just a meaningless existence full of heartbreak and pain. But for awhile there i had a love blinder on and it reflected all the bad in this over dramatized world we live in. I never really understood why people are emo, i always thought what could be that bad in life, but now i see im not saying im emo im just saying that lifes not what its cracked up to be.
thats all for now im just going to go and try and live my meaningless life all alone.
ps. jessica luisser sorry for what i said i really do want your forgiveness i was just having a really bad day and i took it out on you! |
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